Video: Testimony, Age 34
Testimony, Age 37
An event brought about an unexpected new collection/fodder of mental imagery tempting me to fantasize over.
In the midst of fresh imagery and heightened desire, THIS is the time I am learning to lay it down. Help me capture EACH thought. The temptation to linger on these memories... help me, Oh Lord. I know Your will for me is to not dwell on them. To forcefully take these thoughts down and make them obedient to You. I know that these thoughts are a false sense of intimacy completely not based in reality. So really, what is the point in entertaining them?! They are fake! And then I ask You, what are You giving me instead?
I heard Him say that as I captured those thoughts, committing to refuse to dwell on them because they were clearly completely false intimacy, He would show me REAL intimacy in its place!
I turn to You to teach me what is real intimacy - intimacy as You designed it - created in the heart of God. You do not leave me empty-handed!
