Process to Freedom

Over the years, sexual sin had impacted the way I saw myself, the way I saw God, the way I thought God saw me, and the way I saw men.

I had come to believe some really terrible things about myself. During the healing process when God was building me back up again, I wrote down these thoughts (lies I truly felt were true) and I looked for truth pertaining to those things in the Bible. It was painful, and almost impossible to write something contrary to how I felt. But incredibly, little by little the lies lost their power and I now believe and know the truth.

Journal Entry, Age 24
Will I choose to continue believing the lies of satan - that I have little value and worth - or will I choose to believe truth – what God says. Even if I don’t feel it, it’s true. I have value.

When I was needing to re-learn the truth that God loved me, I looked at pictures of myself as a very young girl. I knew without a doubt that He loved me then, before any mistakes. Then I realized that even after years of life and many mistakes, God loves me the same way He loved me then - the same way He loves His Son - immensely (John 17:23)! When I struggled with negative feelings about myself, I think I couldn't see how God could love me, and it was through that distorted reflection that I saw myself. Now, even when I see pictures from when I was at my worst, I have deep compassion for that young woman, similar to how I imagine God feels about her!